New Beginnings
Having taken a month off from the internet, I am now ready to jump back into this with fresh zeal and energy. No excuses, I just lost my mojo a little. In fact, I think I had a curse put on me by a group of competitors, and then lost track of what it was I am trying to achieve.
Posts have been piling up from contributors, and I have been to rude even to contact them to explain, If you are one of them I apologise. I WILL catch up, and back date your posts to when they were submitted.
Meantime, to start me off, I laid a twelve card spread, a personal take on the traditional Celtic Cross reading to see if I could get an insight into as to why I lost motivation, and to see what can be done about it. I used my own favourite deck, Whispering Tarot, and here is my interpretation of it:
At the heart of the matter we have the High Priestess, who I’d like to think is representing me, and my intuitive instincts.
But crossing my path we have The Devil, a stark reminder of the temptations I have been drawn into. Rather than following my heart and flowing through life smoothly, on my way I got caught up with my ego, and became disturbed at how my previous supervisor was handling my situation. And instead of either going with the flow or climbing out of the river, I tried hanging onto the raft and got caught up in a white water rapid of petty squabbles.
Influenicing the situation is the 6 of Swords, telling me to let go of all that, and just float smoothly away from it all. Now is the time to let go and move on.
This is all supported by the underlying Tower Card, showing great changes, and the end of one era. I think that I had always held that little bit of hope that I could end up back at my tarot family, with those who taught me how to read succinctly for an online audience. It was nice being part of a family community, and I was gutted to lose my place there.
In the past, leading up to this is The Sun. Odd, in a way, but it does show how enthusiastic I was about the whole project. It has potential, and according to feedback, is a good site… so I need to hold onto that moving forward. And, moving forwards we have The Star, telling me to reach for my dreams.
But, in the position of advice I have The Hanged Man, suggesting that I should perhaps take my time getting back into it, and perhaps look at approaching this from a different perspective. So, I have deleted the forum, for now. Anyways, after the initial enthusiasm from my small class of real people here in Liverpool, participation was limited and it seems that only spammers were signing up over the last month.
What not to do? The Death card is telling me quite clearly NOT to let this project slip away and die out… That means I need to keep nourishing it in order to sustain life. To feed it regularly, and sensibly.
How do I look out at the World around me? The World is my oyster, so I can go where I like with this as I move onto the next phase. There are no limits!
And how do others see me? Well, The Fool suggests they either think I’m an idiot, or I have a clean slate moving forwards on a new journey that will take me places. I’m going to hold onto the latter!
My hopes or fears… The Three of Pentacles talks to me of bonding and teamwork – the Normin’ stage of the process. (Formin’, Stormin’, Normin’ and Performin’). So perhaps I need to work on creating that steady routine.
And the outcome? The 6 of Pentacles. Now this particular card reminds me of a tale I recently heard bout elephants. How the elephant, so big, steady and strong, moves along under its own volition, bearing his passenger with grace and dignity. She cannot force him, he bears her voluntarily but reliably. They have a symbiotic relationship. he serves her because she treats him well, and together they make a formidable force. So hopefully I’m on the right track. Hopefully!
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